It's been almost two weeks since my last posting. Do people worry when I was gone? Will people care if I disappear? To most, it seems that I was still doing alright, all put together and… "normal". But only myself knows how I fall apart hard time to time – triggered, cried, convinced myself that it will all be fine and repeat this again and again. However I am really growing tired of all the shits, I am too mad to think that the domestic violence and sexual abuse I experienced back then still gives me so much pain today. I don't hate them you see, that's why I am in even more pain because I can't draw clean cut to my past and just move on. But I still try, to improve, to heal, to move on. Eventually when I was ready, I wanna share more about my past to you all, and to all the victims out there for them to know they aren't alone. And if I could do it while knowing that I matter in your life, I would be grateful because I wanna feel like people cared, that my life matters. PS: I really…
